Finding a School or being guided to a School is the moment where one gets a better understanding why one’s life before has been as it has been. Personally I never looked for a School. My childhood was alright, nice, with caring and loving parents, safe upbringing, friends in school. Still, since the age of 12-13 I have often felt like an outsider, not being part of a peer group. During my time at university, this feeling of being an outsider only grew, even though people liked me. After graduating, I travelled to various other countries, but even that experience didn’t make the feeling of being an ‘outsider’ go away. Something in me was looking, though I had no idea what it was looking for.
One day, a friend, a member of the Fellowship of Friends, handed me a copy of In ‘Search of the Miraculous’ by Peter Ouspensky. I clearly remember the most striking sentence in this book, which was when Mr. Gurdjieff tells his listeners that all of them had overlooked the most if not only important aspect of their existence: that man does not remember himself. I started experimenting with self-remembering and remember vividly taking a walk that evening in the neighborhood where I lived trying to remember myself. When I had left the house my state had been low with negative emotions. When I came home I was filled with a very positive state which I felt free in a way I had never before.
Soon after I attended three Fellowship of Friends prospective meetings. I do not remember what was said, but I do remember the feeling of familiarity with these people who were unknown to me. A year later I joined the Fellowship of Friends. Again the feeling of being an ‘outsider’ was there and it stayed for at least a year. I would go to every meeting in which the desire to be together with others who were attempting to remember themselves or be present together would be fulfilled. Gradually I became more part of this Fellowship of Friends Center in Amsterdam, and made new friends, became more social and learned and practiced the three lines of Work.
To find a real School changes one’s life forever. The evolving third eye, soul or God within learns how to separate itself gradually into its Self, its own Being linked to a higher source of consciousness. All this is only an expression in words. Experiencing the reality of being linked to a Real School is the highest privilege one can receive. It is beyond religion, beyond career – basically beyond anything that ordinary life has to offer.
The privacy with which conscious influence makes our commonwealth secure creates a currency that, when it serves as a medium of exchange, expands the sustainability of the market with exponential new purchasing power our personal wealth may access since we often find it valuable to invest in the exchange of the increase of one’s currency.
Thanks for the warmth with which your point of view is shared, Dave Warradijn.
This is similar to my experience. It’s so wonderful to find this site, to learn, explore, to be present.